how have you all been? i apologize for neglecting to contact any of you
I've been spending almost all my time with my girlfriend and my exams, haven't really gone out much with anyone else for some time now.
I've gained a little weight(more like lost some muscle mass) because i haven't been training as much. will start from now on though o.o
hahaha ok im happy right now, everything is going great, its been almost 2 months already :) i just don't wanna sound too happy cause i felt it was a little in your face :/
shall i upload a picture? haha
tadah~~~
hahahaha ask me directly if you wanna know more about her
well, thats about it. going off to Turkey on saturday (11 june)
i'll buy back much turkish delight back ok? ^^ haha take care everyone
Music changes everything<'3
Rock rock rock :D
Rock rock rock :D
Top 10 Lines You Want to Hear From a Guy:
1. When I’m with you I’m at ease
2. I have the most fun when I’m with you
3. I want to be with you forever!
4. I wanted to meet you so I hurried over
5. I’ve never loved anyone as much as I love you
6. I’m glad I met you
7. I love you more every time I meet you
8. I’m most happy now
9. Am I good enough for you?
10. I’m always thinking of you
Top 10 Things You’d Rather Not Tell Your Boyfriend:
1. I’m actually quite hairy
2. My room’s a garbage dump
3. Without makeup I’m a different person
4. I can’t actually cook
5. I have quite a bit of debt…
6. There’s actually quite a bit of padding in my bra
7. All my accessories are gifts from my last boyfriend
8. I’m really not very good at saving money
9. I’m a closeted otaku
10. I sleep in some messed up positions
hahaha oh well
Music changes everything<'3
Rock rock rock :D
Rock rock rock :D
awww i wanna take a picture like this :( looks damn nice lor...
Music changes everything<'3
Rock rock rock :D
Rock rock rock :D
Dana taught me that some people will never like you.
Qian huai taught me not to rush into things, that sometimes you just can't touch and the girl's best friend may destroy everything.
Hin wen taught me that rushing is ok, that sometimes you can touch, never talk about the girls's exs and you can't expect the relationship to last if you guys aren't doing anything together at all. Oh yea, even if the girl is speaking dirty or trying to tease you, they don't really mean they wanna do it, they just wanna tease :/
Venetia.... Well I didn't learn anything from her :P jk , she taught me that if it is too silly then I should walk away. And walking away first feels a lot less painful than to be on the other end.
Eva taught me that you will just not like some people even if you are THAT desperate.
Ying ying taught me that one shouldn't be too sticky. Trust is important and if the other person really wants to hide their feelings from you then they can and will.
Soo Cheng taught me to be thoughtful, caring and simple :) and if you don't make the move first, someone else will.
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Woah I wonder if I'm posting stuff that's too personal here o.o well either way, yea, you(reader) have the privilege of knowing more about me. The lessons mentioned aren't the only lessons I learnt from them, just the ones I felt were more important.
Was considering not putting the names but I felt it wouldn't do them justice.
So there you have it, the women of my life, of course mummy is still the best. ^^
Music changes everything<'3
Rock rock rock :D
Rock rock rock :D
at least thats what i think is going on for now.
i hope he really makes you happy :)
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stupid experiences when i was young shaped me to be the way i am today, theres no helping it. im going off for a run now, i hope it helps me clear my head of you for awhile.
never been to woodlands stadium for some time, i think i'll go back there O.o
wanna know whats going in my head right now? hehe, well, heres how i am keeping myself from being sad.(very evil thought)... no i don't think i should say it haha its too evil a thought that will make you look down on me
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when you think about it, even though i know so many people, i spend SOO much time alone.... people think i should be sad because of that so i am... but i realize that i am quite happy being alone. no expectations, no promises, no commitment. of course then nothing would happen to me but... no, i don't think i should stay alone. i made a promise to myself to change.
i am very afraid, but i am gonna try. i am going to put in effort. i am gonna throw away my inhibitions. slowly. you guys don't know whats going through my mind most of the time but many ideas keep popping up. i should stop thinking so much and do more.
waiting for people to contact me? no more, im just gonna shoot and if you don't like it then just tell me. yea. im not gonna wait anymore for you to.
FRIENDS! please teach me to be better!
Music changes everything<'3
Rock rock rock :D
Rock rock rock :D
Now I will attempt to teach you what I recently learnt. I was just looking on twitter and I found a tweet that had a lot of meaning in it.
It goes like " if a man knows how to treat a girl like a princess, it is proof that he was raised by a queen" or smth along that line. Now this is pretty easy to understand and all but it really struck a chord with me somewhere really deep inside of me.
Let say I don't naturally treat girls like princesses, it means that I wasn't raised by a queen, but I for one know my mom is pretty awesome so that leads to another thing: I didn't spend enough time with my mom. The lack of understanding my mom and treating her well has in turn actually affected the ways I treat girls or girlfriends. Walao eh! Now I can call this regret.
The way I grew up and the way I was spoiled growing up also affected me, I never learnt to give gifts, never learnt how to talk to people when they were sad, never learnt to care and a few other things. Because I was so sheltered I became this selfish spoilt brat who couldn't give a damn about others if they took too long to get over their problems.
Now I am not totally bad, the reason why you see me as a good person was also because of my childhood, in primary school I was constantly bullied, I gained my sense of justice because of that, I would always support the underdog, the one who was always left out in the group.
There are many other factors to why I am the way I am but I'll save that for another time.
My entire upbringing is definitely nothing like any of your's(reader's) , it consisted of me not having that image of a complete family, Seeing my mother cry, seeing my father get chased out cause he was an asshole at that time, having both hate each other, seeing them both go into relationships with other people..... Etc etc.... I don't know, I think that screws you up a little bit in the head.
This post isn't abou me being sad, just thought I should let you guys know me better
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I was supposed to rant longer but I didn't manage to finish in time , oh well. Hahaha thanks for reading~~~
Music changes everything<'3
Rock rock rock :D
Rock rock rock :D
When I'm not happy, I care too much, I should be caring all the time and caring enough but not overbearing!
People get tired sometimes and thats ok, everyone does, just have to show that you're making an effort to be Better.
Personality changes don't not happen overnight, or even after a few months but when they do, the person must have gone through something really fantastic or traumatic. I am psyching myself to become better everyday, think you guys may see a more enthu Bryce the next time we meet!
| I don't want to burden you with my thoughts for now, I think you have much going on for you, and if I can't help then I shouldn't talk at all.(of course if you want MY company you know, you could give me a hint or smth o.o) more than happy to help ^^ |
I must grow up! A man is useless if he is always relying on other people!! I must become someone you!(reader) can rely on when you need help! I have no other motivation in this world but to be useful, if I'm not useful then I am nothing!! (acting very man right now)
I hope none of you find me annoying, if you got any suggestions on how to make me a better person than please do tell. I don't like things being kept in :( it's ok if it hurts me, learning to be better is more important.
Thank you guys once again for reading, really appreciate it :)
Music changes everything<'3
Rock rock rock :D
Rock rock rock :D